Things (part 1)... that rip the mind apart

A false start is the only start you get,
Its what you are now used to almost everyday.
You don't care much about anything now,
and are clueless about whats, when, who and how.
Events take place, some happen, others don't,
around you things wrap up and new ones unfold.
Each time you take a path,
you seem to end up on a crossroad,
of desires and so called written destiny,
not knowing whether they are the same or the exact opposites.
You sanity goes for a toss,
as you wonder which road to take,
and whether it really matters,
if this is perception and the reality is a maze.
The thought peeks out of the now cornered portions of the mind,
of what is really going on and how can you turn in to this kind,
but as soon as you try to answer,
it goes back into the hole.
These are the things,
which seem to rip you mind apart,
just lie there innocently like broken glass shards,
give you cuts when you try to pick them up,
the only way is to crush them and bleed a bit,
for that will be the end of it,
And now  you are free smile,
left only with the things that make your heart happy.